Monday, December 8, 2008
I am having one craptastic day. I am very depressed about this cycle not working. I am feeling like my period could start any minute and I am sad sad sad about it. It really sucks to feel this way and try to do my job. I need to be up, I need to be excited, I need to "sell" my material. Today I feel like crawling into a little ball and weeping. This is not a job where you can lay low and just ride it out. I was happy I booked the computer lab today so I wouldn't need to be the star and the kids could do their activity and I could blend in with the scenery. Alas the gods and goddesses hate me since I took my first period class down to the computer lab and the program had been taken off the the computers when they upgraded the operating system. So I was left with 25 kids and no plan. I pretty much almost cried in front of the kids. I usually am pretty good a winging it, but today I am just not up to it. The only way this day could get better is if someone spills their lunch on me while I have lunch duty or if I get my period while I am teaching and it bleeds through my pants. Since I am teaching from about 10 min from now to 2:30 without a break this is actually a possibility. Oh a nice nasty parent email could be a nice treat. I can only hope today gets better.