Monday, December 8, 2008

Feeling Negative

I am having one craptastic day. I am very depressed about this cycle not working. I am feeling like my period could start any minute and I am sad sad sad about it. It really sucks to feel this way and try to do my job. I need to be up, I need to be excited, I need to "sell" my material. Today I feel like crawling into a little ball and weeping. This is not a job where you can lay low and just ride it out. I was happy I booked the computer lab today so I wouldn't need to be the star and the kids could do their activity and I could blend in with the scenery. Alas the gods and goddesses hate me since I took my first period class down to the computer lab and the program had been taken off the the computers when they upgraded the operating system. So I was left with 25 kids and no plan. I pretty much almost cried in front of the kids. I usually am pretty good a winging it, but today I am just not up to it. The only way this day could get better is if someone spills their lunch on me while I have lunch duty or if I get my period while I am teaching and it bleeds through my pants. Since I am teaching from about 10 min from now to 2:30 without a break this is actually a possibility. Oh a nice nasty parent email could be a nice treat. I can only hope today gets better.


Snickollet said...

Wish I could give you a hug or a bunch of chocolate, or both.

Hope the day gets better. Or at least doesn't get worse. Sorry it's been bad so far.

wishinghopingpraying said...

I am so sorry about you shitty day.I am sending you big hugs and good thoughts.

queerstork said...

((virtual hug))

I hope the day turned out to be not as bad as you thought it might. The first few days after a BFN are the hardest for me. Hang in there though, soon you'll be ready to take on another cycle and what you're feeling right now, in this moment, will blur itself away.