Sunday, April 19, 2009

So Ready for a Vacation

Well in looking at previous blogs it looks like I've been pretty silent lately. It's not that I don't have anything to say (that is never an issue) but I think I've been so consumed with all that needs to happen before Baby G arrives, worrying about how we're going to swing the expenses, and probably the big thing is the shaky status of my job. If it were just me or even Sam and I, I could get by. My job has been unsteady for a while but over the last 3-4 weeks I have received word on two occasions that "we don't have work for May or June". This is clearly an issue as a PM among 3 other PMs. I've been warned of this lack of work but not word on who they will cut or exactly when. So this unknowing is driving me insane and to say I'm wound a little tight lately is an understatement. I'm trying to not stress SSG out and trying not to get all consumed with it. I don't want it to squash my excitement about Baby G's arrival.

On top of this all we had dinner with SSG's parents, aunt and uncle who were in town, and SSG's sister and boyfriend last night.  Without telling a long story and having this blog be completely negative, I'll give the short version.  SSG's sister is still showing no interest in her first niece or nephew and made it completely clear last night that she still doesn't. Actually she said pretty much she's just too busy for this child between working and grad school. It's hurtful but as I said to SSG last night on the way home, "It's understandable that you feel hurt and disappointed. However if she chooses not to have any relationship with this child then it is her loss. She's pathetic and miserable." We can't make her want to experience the joy of being an aunt. My only hope at this point is that this resentful attitude she clearly has toward SSG and her pregnancy doesn't get directed at my child.  

We're just moving on today and we're going to get pedicures so when we're in Puerto Rico we have pretty toes!  This trip to Puerto Rico is great timing actually. We leave tomorrow a.m. and we're looking forward to sun, warmth, and just relaxing. We worked really hard to be able to go on this trip, really budgeted and buckled down so I feel like it's a well deserved getaway.   


Craving of Motherhood said...

Enjoy your trip!!! I too have a sister who shows little interest. Her "religious" discrimination gets in her way of being human.

Strawberry said...

Have a fabulous time in PR! We went there once on a cruise and 1 day was simply not enough.

Sorry to hear about SSG's sister. We are also dealing with a similar issue, not because of religion, but because my sister has always been an arrogant bitch. lol. It's sad because I wanted our child to have a nice aunt on my side, and it doesn't look like that's happening. But you're right, you can't force a relationship and it's totally their loss.

cmd said...

Have fun in Puerto Rico ladies! This is a well-deserved vacation for you both.

Snickollet said...

Welcome home, friends! I hope you had a glorious trip. I can't wait to hear all about it.

All I could do when I read about SSG's sister was sigh. Every time, I think maybe she'll grow up a little, but my hope is dying. Sorry you're dealing with that.

At least you're coming home to good weather. It will keep you Puerto Rico dreaming :).